I have to say it feels weird to even be here and to be writing this (it’s been so long)! I haven’t written a post in over a month so I figured I’d give you guys a general life update. I was posting before anywhere between 1-3 times a week and I was pushing really hard to stick to that schedule. But somewhere along the line it started feeling like I was forcing it and I always want to be transparent and authentic with you guys.
So once I came to the realization that I may be writing posts just to write them I took a step back. I started living life and taking pictures while living instead of taking pictures to make it look like I was living a certain life. I think there’s a huge misconception with bloggers and influencers and what our daily lives look like. I would probably need a whole blog post dedicated to that but I’ll break it down quickly for you here. There is a lot of behind the scenes work that is required (the not-so-fun stuff) so taking pictures is only a small part. Sometimes it’s easier to get ready once or twice a week and change into a few different outfits to get a week’s worth of photos. So, for the longest time that’s what Shaun and I would do. And I would plan days, sometimes weeks, in advance the locations we would go to and we would cram a week’s worth of photos into a few hours. By the end of the day I was exhausted and honestly felt sad that the life in my photos looked prettier than my real life. We rushed through the activity so that we could get photos and I didn’t even get to enjoy it.
Well, back in October Shaun quit his job at a place he hadn’t been happy at for quite some time. So that meant that not only was he home with me every day but he was available to do anything we (I) wanted and needed to do. And oh, did I take advantage. I started planning activities immediately. We watched the sunrise in Central Park, we got coffee at cute little coffee shops, we walked the Brooklyn Bridge at sunrise, we ice skated, and we did all the things every tourist wants to do but during the week super early in the morning to avoid the crowds. All I did was genuinely enjoy the activity I had planned for us and somewhere along the way we took photos of it.
I started living life and capturing what I was living instead of creating moments to capture. I mean, how guilty are we of doing this at times? Do you know how many moments I’ve actually thought to myself oh I should get a picture of this to post on Instagram? I blame what I do a lot for that thought but I try to push it out of my head now. If I feel like taking photos I do. If I don’t, I don’t.
My mom came into town this weekend and we had so much fun I can’t even put it into words. I didn’t post on my feed, nor on stories. I just wanted to soak in every moment and be present with her because her trip was so short. I made sure to capture moments so that I could share with you all later, but I just didn’t want to be responding to DMs and comments and cut into valuable time with my mom.
So I know from where you sit I probably seem so distant, but I’ve actually never been more present and aware. I’m soaking up every moment of Christmastime in New York. I have to say it’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. Every movie that you’ve seen that shows New York at Christmas depicts exactly what it’s like here right now, only add about 14 million people.
Shaun and I have been figuring out our next move and if you follow me on Instagram and you watch my stories you’ll know that that next move is a podcast, which will be coming soon. But some other things you can expect to see from me soon are more home decor posts, weekend travel guides for NYC, and honeymoon travel guides. I don’t know that I’ll have a regular posting schedule (maybe I will?) but I know that I’ll bring you content that I genuinely want to write about and that I think you want to read about. I hope you stick around.